Even I have been unfortunate in marital relationships wherein there was turmoil, uncertainty, and anguish. But fortunately for me, I’ve found true peace, surety, and a comfort unmatched by any. I have found a place in God that many spouses would be too jealous for their wives to find. (It is something to experience.) I've learned how God supplies all things to those who love him, he gives us courage, and infallible strength to be marveled at; and for many who have had their virtues taken and stolen by snares by that wicked one, God will restore a 100 fold.
This Love is beyond anyone attempting to prove their worth because God gives them worth and love each beyond compare. I hope one day you too will walk on this path; many of us are chosen to do so.
I am reminded of Mary Magdalene she was the first woman who found THAT love I speak about. It was demonstrated when she washed his feet with her tears, kissed them, and dried them with her hair. Then she anointed his feet with ointment from an alabaster box. This wasn't done in secret, but openly. She wasn't a holy woman, but a sinner, and her life was never the same. The Pharisees questioned why Jesus allowed such a woman/sinner to touch him. The Love Mary Magdalene received and felt can only be experienced, and it gets deeper. Luke 7:37